Perfect - A little bit of truth

I think as a human it is in my nature to compare myself with others and I know deep down a lot of us do it. I can feel myself scrolling through what seems to be perfection on the internet but in reality it is just a tiny piece of somebody's life. I don't know why I do it but I seem to thrive off torturing myself about what others have that I don't, or what others look like and where they are in life. I don't think it helps when we constantly get force fed what we should look like, or what we should eat. Also that we should all have a billion Instagram followers to be classed as anything worth while in life. That is when I realised that none of it means a thing! The word perfect is silly as nobody is perfection as life is full of ups and downs and we have to enjoy what we have as it could be a lot worse! I know the blogging world is a hard place to be recognised, not everyone is going to get sent on glamorous holidays and be given big packages of cosmetics and clothing to try. No one is going to turn down that lifestyle. Although it gets to that point when thinking that is the only goal of blogging sucks the fun out of it entirely. Let's face it there are plenty of us floating around in cyber space and I think for most of us it started because it is something we enjoy. Why let it be another platform to be made to feel like your not good enough?  Unfortunately there are lots of other ways for that to happen. Your little corner of the internet is something to be proud of. Watching it grow from what it was when you started should be reward enough. I know I'm saying this today and I might have a day when I feel its all pointless tomorrow but I feel it should be enjoyable, or why would we want to do it when we have lots of other things to worry about?

Another thing is the constant pressure to know how your future should be played out and what you exactly want from life. I am 23 and I have been in the same career area since I was 18, I knew I wanted a change but now. I do admit I miss it a little but not in a lets go backwards kind of a way. I just don't really know what I want to do with my life, well I do but I need to work to get the funds to do that and I think that is the scariest thing ever as it is one fat circle! I know my 40 year old self will not be worrying about any of this, rather worrying if my kids are making the right life choices and this will all be a vague memory but in the present its so frightening. If I want this amazing future surely I need to know what it is. I think this worry comes and goes but when it rears its ugly head it can be a little overwhelming. So I think I have got to stop and say to myself it is ok that I don't have everything planned out and maybe that is part of the fun? I am getting married next year and all that organising has made me grow up and I definitely know that part of my future is happening so it isn't like I am running into the next section of my life completely blindfolded. Well I know each big mile stone is a learn as you go along situation. So right now I am going to decide to go with it and see what happens. After all how can you worry about something that isn't even here yet?


I am not sure if that was a revelation of mine or just a rant either way I feel better.
I hope maybe this helps anybody who is in the same boat at the moment. ox